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i saw adam lambert today, yesss

STOP READING THIS MOM!!!!!!

i am IN AWE.

so... I saw jimmy tonight on their clarity tour. someone has been doing their TWITTER the entire tour. the reason i know it's not a band member, which is fine, is that they do pics all night long... awesome... cool for all the 13,000 followers.

WHAT THE FUCK

so i get home, wasted, and reply them saying like OMGOMG I'LL COME GET YOU LETS PARTY..... stupid shit.

dude, they REPLY TO ME! saying don't drunk twitter!!

or something.

dude, jimmy eat world edplied to me saying don't trust twitterrrrr!!!! something close!!! holy shit. i checked their last few pages, they dont repl;y to anyone!! wow!

but srsly, no signal all night at thte house of blues..... i think updated was annoyed by that maybe, cuz..... it WAS fucking annoying.

i recoreded maybe 10 clips for my mom on muy kick, cus her fav songs played.... my kick died.... NOW IT WILL NOT restart at all.... my chargers or any.... who knows, i dont care as long as i saw JEW. my $300 phone can fuck an a.

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shit. i see jimmy eat world tonight on their clarity tour.

i NEVER listen to this cd unless i am seriously upset, but am right now, so it's weird.

ahh, can't wait can't wait. a bunch of people i know will be there which is weird since it only holds like 1000?? and sold out in 5 minutes.

Just watched slumdog millionaire. it IS really good. i'm gonna watch it again this week sometime with my speakers & sub. the music is fantastic also. the little kid actors are sooo damn cute. anyway, i thought it was awesome.

umm 3 years ago today (2/23) i moved to san diego. i technically flew in to LA on the 21st i believe... but came down to san diego on brooke's birthday. i remember brandon dropped me off at the bus station, since he had to work, then i rode a bus to the train station, bought a train ticket down to carlsbad and met with an employment agency. it was weird going back to carlsbad. but, i met an awesome taxi driver who told me what i was doing was really cool (moving from MN by myself) and gave me his number so he could pick me back up to go to the train station. i took a train down to san diego - old town. brandon's gf at the time, amy, came and got me. she took like an hour and it was soo cold at night. she said her roommate's birthday was that night and they were having sushi. eww, never had sushi before. so we just went to rubios... didn't know what that was. i spilled cheese quesadilla grease on my new damn skirt. ugh. after that we went back to their house. i had just met these people for the first time, or even known about them pretty much. brandon brought down a bag of clothes for me from LA. brooke, amy and i took shots of vodka. i think that was it for the day. interesting. anyway, weird that it's been 3 years already.

2 years ago today i got my new car since my other one had been totaled. i remember it was cut off at work, and adrian was new and couldn't balance right away and i had to get my car by 5pm. ahhh! at 4:30 i told my boss i HAD to go. i had to bring the rental car back to the place, brooke picked me up at enterprise, and we had to speed to the dealership. oh shit, i don't remember if i had to go pick up a check from the bank or if i had it already? i think i actually had to go get it. oh god. got my car. drove to carmel mountain where brooke was housesitting. they went out in PB and i got drunk at the house. superrr supperrr nice house. then they came back all wasted.

i don't remember what i did 1 year ago AT ALL. haha.

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O NO!

my calculus class is going to eat me alive. i just spent an hour on 10 problems, and still don't understand them all. i got 9/10 though :) the other one was a fucking trick question... dammit...

it was a fraction with x being on the bottom... then said f(x) = 0. X CANNOT BE 0!!! but whatever, the answer was apparently 1/36 or something. wahhhh.

mom and i were talking about all the jobs being cut... http://perezhilton.com/category/business-blitz/ shows a ton of them... if you want to look keep hitting "previous page" on the bottom. bank of american 35,000 jobs over 3 years! UGH!

anyway, if i didn't have credit card debt i'd be rolling dough soon. $1000 taxes, $500 egg donation, $150 from scott for concert tickets, $4500 when egg donation over.

it won't even put a dent in my fucking debt :( LAME! in october i'm gonna move to somewhere way cheaper than now. if i would have known that all this shit was going down (mainly mom on 4 day weeks) then i would have moved when my lease was up in oct. only problem is bird, but he isn't loud at all i guess. only for like 10 minutes a day before bedtime. hopefully i can find a damn roommate since mine goes back to colombia i believe.

i kinda want a new car.........

did my federal taxes last night, got $1014. am pissed about state - california gets IOUs. BUT we get interest, you can keep it for a year and give me it next yr if you wanna... as long as there's interest. or even 5 years, whatever. i only get like $200 from that.

some CUTE 16 year old came to my house selling newspapers. FUCK, why don't i learn my damn lesson, do NOT open the fucking front door when someone knocks. ugh. ppl selling shit come to my house like once a month or less. he had a good speech, was funny, and nice, so i bought the $6/mo newspaper. i said for ONE MONTH! asked him how old he was... ha. pedoooo. he saw my skateboard and was all "OMG DO YOU SKATE" yes...no not really.

started school a week ago. so far have 95% in one class... the other one haven't started yet, just got my book today. looks fucking gnar though. derivatives? see i can't even spell it. for one class i HAVE to use a PC, and for some reason mine isn't working??? i don't know, it won't go past the startup screen. mom is sending me reformat cds soo... hope that works, ugh. i am gonna work two saturdays this month and do my homework then. might do some tomorrow morning before my manager comes in, since it takes up the whole screen and you can't minimize to cheat or something. i dunno. calc, i can do at home.

coworkers today were talking about their cars, new tires, blah blah. so then i thought of all the shit i should do, i didn't get a 90k system check or whatever it's called, so i called dad to ask what i should do and he went off.... saying do this this this this this, FUCK that's like $1000!!!!! so far, i am gonna do a oil change/tire rotations/brake check/fluid check thing once i need an oil change... then do my serpentine belt? then transmission fluid something? i dunno, i can do that stuff i guess right away but anything more $$$ i am not doing. my credit card is out of this world i think.

what else? i miss one of my good friends right now :( long story.

WENT TO DENNYS TODAY! haha, there was like 30 people in line, so we went in, got a raincheck good through 2/13... and left. our manager texted us after like 45 min of being gone "ya just gonna come back then?" then her and another girl left for TWO HOURS!!!!! they just went to tgi fridays. what the hell! whatever, then we had a meeting with us 3 girls in our dept and found out we might be acquiring student loans at the end of the month. THANK GOD, more work for me, less boredom. i want a fucking student loan through us!!!!! how rad would that be! i'd give myself 500 extensions, lower my interest rate, waive late fees, ha.

Flight of the Conchords tour, May 20th in San Diego!!!!!!!!!

Had a dr appt today, I begin BC pills for 21 days or so... so I can drink coffee & alcohol still until then "in moderation". Yeah.

UGH! I wish this would just be over with!

UHH, "cycle" started a TINY bit this morning (sorry if gross to talk about, stuff it!) and UHH definitely getting it full 2morrow. That means I have to call them tomorrow and make appt for Thurs or Friday! Friday for sure since I don't work. OMG! This is going to be nuts.

Friday is going to be crazy I think. I guess I will wake up early, drive downtown to buy book for my class, then back up to my appt, then Justin wants to tan at the pool, then Jason going to put in my car speakers and I have to make him spaghetti at Jamie's, then they want to go out. I doubt I will go out, maybe I will... I CAN'T DRINK. Tonight we are going out so it will be my last night I guess. I was planning more to begin this on Mon or Tues, but whatever.

I better go hide my alcohol right now so it's not tempting. I have a display of like 12 bottles on top of the fridge. It's going to look bare :(

Getting kind of nervous... this weekend I believe I start my donation process/early next week.

I can't be nervous. They do this thing where they figure out your stress level by drawing blood or something. WORST! I need to start calming down.

School started today, haven't even looked to see what it's about much yet. I know I gotta go buy $200+ of books. Sweeet.

I also want to comment on people lying. I don't know, maybe I am stalker ish or think too much about it. But, I can tell when ANYONT is lying about ANYTHING. Lately it's been terrible. Especially males, and it's not even to 'get ahead' with girls, it's just STUPID POINTLESS lying. Why? WHY?

Just an example. This guy who apparently likes me was emailing from his gmail to my on my sidekick email for about an hour. He had sent me two pictures to my phone within that hour. Then I finally asked "why not on AIM?" and he goes "I'm on my iphone". Ok, NO you are not. The way I can tell is because your pictures are in the mac photobooth program format of Photo123.jpg. Also iphones capitalize your sentences. Why not just say "because I am watching tv and don't want to be on aim"? Or anything? I don't know. JUST TELL THE DAMN TRUTH, I do not fucking care.

I wish I could just call all these people out, but then I feel like a bitch or that I am... stalkerish. I guess it shouldn't bug me, which it doesn't for the most part, until like I get multiple people doing it. I FEEL terrible when I lie, even if it's about something small, plus it's easier to remember if I don't lie.

I cannot find fucking ANYONE to go out with tonight! Everyone either went out last night, went out last night and is doing lame things (which I'd maybe do) but is too far, OR is just too far, or is just too lame.

GOD DAMMIT, the only night I REALLY want to go (which is rare, if I have to drive myself) NOONE WANTS TO! What the hell is that! Ugh, I must go through my phonebook again.... and again...

I bought a bottle of champagne and its GONE now, and I dyed my hair last night (touch up), so I am ready... and nonoe else is.

I apologize in advance for in a week or so when I begin my meds. Lisa (friend who did egg donation) said she was a gnar wreck. Crying then laughing then crying. It will only be for a month or less. So I am sure I will be posting sappy shit here... most of it will probably be false, or exaggerated.

Like now.

Ewww nasttty!!

Ugh, so had ultrasound, saw my uterus, sick! They said I had an awesome one, duh. Saw some other weird things in there. I HATE THAT. Umm they drew blood and I almost passed out so had to go lay down. I ALWAYS do that if I don't eat much... I think about it too much then feel shitty. I am soo lame. Whatever, my nurse is rad as hell. Then gave me a sheet of what's going on. I have to call 1st day of period and go in 2nd day and get some BC pills or something. Take them for 15 days. The last 5 days I have to start Lupron injections. Then take those for 10 or so days, then some other shot at the very end, then small surgery, NO cutting, but I get awesome shit in my arm to pass out for half hour. That is awesome!!! I love that stuff!! I've only had it when I had my wisdom teeth removed, and I tried to stay away as long as possible to see if I could, and no way, that shit had me out in 2.2.

So... hopefully i am done with this in mid March? Maybe, hopefully. OMG this is weird.

Gees! Today was nuts.

Came into work around 8, 2 coworkers were sitting outside the door. The power went off over the weekend and we couldn't get in. We use key cards to enter. Soo sat around for 45 min. Me and scott wanted to watch the inauguration so we left and tried to find somewhere, everyone was closed til like 9, but found Sears and watched it with like 10 others including workers, ha. Like @ 915, some douchebag 18 yr old walks up on his cell "MOM HUH, IM IN SEARS WATCHNG SUMTHIN BOUT PRESIDENT OBAMA". Like SHOUTING! Said it like 3 times. We were all like shut the fuck up!

Got back and power was now on, everything in freezer n fridge was gross. Ugh.

Now I leave in an hour to go to my dr appointment. Ahhh, so scared. They might do an ultrasound!?! UGH go up my vag? Worst. I know taking blood for sure. Ok, well if its a shitty time, im going to get $1.25 fish tacos for din. Rubios is having discount on them today.

Im going to shit my pants ahhhh!!

roommate came back tonight, she told me all about her trips. she had to go to san fran for a work thing for like a week or so, then back home to colombia for over a month. she brought me back a bottle of their alcohol, like similar to a bailey's she said, also brought this other stuff that she said we have to drink together b/c she has to show me how to drink it. it's housed in like a juice box container, super weird! anyway, she told me like a ton of shit about her city, bogota, and the country itself, for over an hour. also told me about san fran, never been.

then me and friend from new zealand, he tells me about everything in his country.

both are super proud and have so much good stuff to say. then i think about US and am like, GAG, worst country EVER! maybe i am just looking at the negative about it all, but the people are just so stupid and fat and lazy and gross, and like don't care, or something. maybe that is everywhere, but those two just like jump for joy when i ask anything about nz or colombia. neither would ever live permanently outside of them. hmm...

Some random number called me today and didn't leave a message, whatever.

like 30 minutes later, Heather yells "OMG LANDMARK IS CALLING ME!" (her work phone). It clicked, and I asked the number and YES, that was Landmark that called me. FUCK! What the hell are they doing!!!!! Go away!!

Also, was doing some paperwork for egg donation today, and uhh, it said something about $4000, so I emailed and asked what that was... they said what I'd be receiving. I emailed saying like what, says on the website 5k and my friends got 5k. They said the parents are on a reduced fee program and that I'd be getting $4000, but if I needed $5000 (worded it diff) that they will do it. I told her I'd think about it and I was expecting $5000 so I'd contact them tomorrow. Then she emailed me saying again about if I needed $5000 they do it, then another email an hour later saying let her know if the new fee is okay and she will send me the new paperwork. So I asked mom and like 10 other people, some said do $4500, some said no way $5000. Someone said they shouldn't put a price on their child, another said compromise in the middle, some said that's not fair that you should get reduced just because they can't/maybe can't afford it and they should cut costs somewhere else and that I am doing them a favor anyways to get something close to their own child. I felt bad just because I know they've spent thousands on other ways and whatever else, but still, that isn't fair to me taking a pay cut essentially just because someone chose me who couldn't afford it all, AND they didn't even tell me in the first place, they just had it on the paperwork, and if I had not asked, I'd be getting $4000 and not know it til the end. Well I replied saying I'd like to stick to the $5000 fee, blah blah, I hope the parents are still interested because I want to do this for them, it was a hard decision, on and on. She emailed me back saying like it was a heart warming email or something.

I don't feel as bad now, because maybe the company is picking up the tab. I also said if other pay arrangements need to be made, that is fine, like if they can't pay it all up front... or whatever.

So, that is my drama for the day.